Dirty old men...

" so how many did you score yesterday macha?"

"(grins) two"

"motherfucker! WHoah.. Where did you take them back to? and two ar macha? HOw la you handled it?"

"hotel la bro.. You know la chicks these days. They're up for it together-gether. (laughs obnoxiously)"

"Why din go back to their place, who knows got more bitches to join in?"

"Those cunts were staying in hostel la bro."

"Work hostel?"

"No la. College accomodation."

"College girls???? How old were they?"

" I think about 18 or 19. Quite cheap also, I tipped rm100 each and motherfucker you should see the shit they were doing la. Better than GROs"  with disgusting gestures)

" You got tape ar?"

"(snickers) No la crazy ar you? Dangerous wei... U know la. Shit luck and it'll end up in my wife's hands one day. Die man.. Must be smart la..thats why i main college girls. cheap, easy, tight, "

I couldn't help but eavesdrop this conversation of two middle aged men sitting in front of me at Starbucks. 

Firstly, they were talking loudly as though this is a usual table conversation and for someone who doesn't want his wife to find out bout his sick habits, he wasn't being remotely discreet about it. Secondly, I couldn't help but pick up disgustingly rude words they were using like "cunt", "motherfucker", "bitch" and others which i feel inappropriate to even post up on my blog! And thirdly, THIRDLY, i couldn't believe my ears and couldn't mask my disgust of married middle aged balding "Uncles" bragging about screwing teenagers which are old enough to be their daughters. Fourthly, being a teenager somewhat not too long ago, i cannot imagine why would young beautiful girls want to have sex with old ugly men for money. I am being judgemental here so sue me... but i still think it is awful, disgustingly disgusting, and just plain SICK!

As i grow older each day, and think of getting married, having children and being middle aged myself not too long from now, it scares me. It scares me to have a husband who would sit with his friends and brag about the "chicks" who are more supple and younger than me that he has had relationships with, it scares me to have daughters who might be one of those "chicks",  It scares me to have sons who might turn gay for materialistic reasons, it scares me that my husband will be bringing younger girls to parties instead of bringing me, it scares me greatly..

It is very common these days for older men to date young girls. So common it is almost becoming a norm. In my parent's time, it was unacceptable to see women smoking, wearing revealing outfits, and having premarital sex. But in today's world, my world, my age, all these are acceptable and a norm. I think for once in my life, i can imagine how scary it is for my parents. Because all these things that i think is unnatural and unaaceptable, might just be acceptable in the new age to come... I'm not sure i even want to have children ever now just by these mere thoughts....

It's a scary world out there....